go out tied down,
deaf to the voice requiring now acknowledgement,
something, some recognition.
Tied down, yes, tied, and deaf to it.
In such a death there is no ending, none,
and no resolve.
Only lapses like a wheel, forgetfulness.
Who touches the ache touches numbness against relief.
It is remembering with happy tears the worst of winters!
Such halls of want these luckless truths build!
Who can help but love them who taught restraint,
a stone lesson
to endure silence like an excess of suffering
until such suffering to love spills into dreams—
oh, when to hold, when not to hold them,
when not to meet their eyes.
What’s chosen earnestly, by faith,
may be used in time against us.
Who can say how many or how few are buried in us.
* An aubade is a poem or song about lovers who must leave one another in the early hours of the morning.
